Sunday, July 26, 2009

A Letter to my Son






Happy Birthday,

I miss you my son....wishing you were here to blow out candles....share in the joy of your birth! I know I'm being selfish when I cry that you're not here. I don't think I shall ever stop wishing for the chance to see your smile...the shine in your eyes...one of your awesome bear hugs!

I know that you are being well taken care of....this fact has been told me by God himself! I can't count how many times he whispered to me "He is good my child". I can't be mad at God that it was your time to go...he has blessed me with so much love! I knew in my heart I wouldn't have you long the first time I looked into your eyes....the eyes of an "old soul". Your sister will be with me for years to come. I was blessed with you both...for different reasons ...each significantly important in and to my life here while I walk the mortal path. I know that you can see your beautiful nieces....they remind me so much of you and your sister!

I know that one day I will see and hold you once again. I am blessed with wonderful memories of a son's love for his mom! With your death I found how strong a mothers love is and the realization that God's love for me is no less than my love for my children renewing my faith. My faith outshines the sun once more!

Til the day that my journey ends I will embrace life so that I will have lots of stories to tell.

A mothers love never dies,

Mom

Happy Birthday Randall

Today is the day of my son's birth 29 years ago. It was a happy day unlike the day of his death yet both days were filled with tears. To my horror I discovered today that I had been thinking all week his birthday was tomorrow. I awoke crying ....my heart knew what day it was even though my mind had eluded it...proving there is no escaping what the heart feels or knows.